and then there were two

We all know how completely terrified i was about having two kids, especially two kids so close together. Well, its been a week now, and we've survived. Preston spent a good part of Claire's first week either playing @ Grandma Kathy's or Grandma Webb's (THANK YOU a million times over!!) And since he's been home, into the mix of our new family of four, we are learning to take it one day at a time, scratch that, one minute at a time. Preston loves his baby sister, sometimes a little too much, but mostly just right. He often acts like he wants to hold her, and as we set her in his arms, he's ready to take off to the next mini-adventure. But, i tell you, if that little girl had a kiss-counter on her forehead, the number would be very very large, due to sweet preston kisses (which thankfully, have made a switch from wide open mouth kisses, to very soft, puckered up kisses).
There was a moment, on the first night we were home from the hospital, that i was putting Preston to bed, and as i was rocking him, i sobbed. and sobbed. (partly due to hormonal imbalance i'm sure) but also because here i was, rocking my baby, who still is my baby. I cried because i realized that this was going to be hard, very hard. Preston's still little, and needs me, or at least i like to think he does. And there we were, with another sweet baby, who also needs me very much. And for that moment, I was scared. Scared that Preston would feel neglected or that i would fail to give him the attention and time that he needs because i'll be busy with Claire too. And i'm still scared, and i certainly still know that its gonna be tough, but in a good challenging way, i think. Clearly i know i'm not the first mom on earth who has had babies close together, its a very possible feat, just one that will keep me on my toes. So, here we are one week down. And i think the thing i've learned most is that I am blessed. Blessed to be a mom to these two little angels. Blessed to have a challenge ahead of me that will keep me focused on my purpose and in tune with my Savior, who put it best when he said...."I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it." Indeed it will be.

and now, i have two napping babies, and i'm wondering....Why am i still awake?